This is something that has been bothering me for awhile lately. It is the concern and decency that people treat others with. I have standards that I hold myself to. To not speak badly about people I work and live with. To not gossip or judge their actions because god knows i have enough on my own plate to go eating off someone elses.
Why is it so hard for others to give me the same regard? I have been laid off at work because of the black speech of others. Other teachers found it necessary to look over My shoulder and report my every misstep to the higher ups. Did they not have enough to do with their own classes? I know I never had enough time to loom over their backs.
To make matters worse it is carrying over into my life outside of work. People looking over my shoulder online. People I have personally approved as “friends” to see and comment on the parts of myself that I choose to share. I think this bothers me more because though it did not cost me a job, it cut deeper because of the trust I placed in them.
Maybe I am being overly touchy, maybe it is all just poorly timed but because of this double dose of crap, I am having a very hard time putting up with bullshit when I see it. Things like singling people out for punishment who have not earned it. Putting people through hoops to humble them… Bull shit. It’s not even directed at me but it irritates me and I call people out when I see it being done. Maybe this makes me a dick. Most people don’t like having their gossiping and hazing pointed out. I just can’t tolerate it right now.
What makes it worse is that after I let my disappointment known, I feel like a huge jerk because the other person honestly has no justification for what they are choosing to do to someone else and they end up cussing at me or crying. Is this just what humans do to each other and we make it some kind of day to day game? Has it just not mattered to me before? I suppose it’s my fault for expecting different?
In the game of houses, you win or you die.
I’m sorry you’re getting shit on at work. That’s terrible, and really immature. Maybe the stress and worry about finances and everything is bringing out the worse in people?
I don’t think pointing out when someone does wrong makes you a dick. You’re just trying to stop something that shouldn’t be happening, hopefully preventing someone else from getting screwed over like you did.
Are you going to try to leave early for basic training since you aren’t working?
Yea it’s the army for me. Going to go strait through instead of split op. Steph is not thrilled about the time away, but it’s income and it’s getting everything out of the way at once.